Stacie's Blog

Haha…recently, one of my good friends began a new blog and I remembered I haven’t blogged for LONG LONG time!  But to begin with, somethings are going pretty well and somethings are going not too well.  One amazing thing is, middle school graduation is sooo soon!!!!  Looking back too all these years, I can’t believe how much I’ve learned and how fast I’ve grown up.  And then four more years of high school…but then since 4th grade I kinda set my mind to become so part of the medical system, and believe it or not,  it’s ten years of college/medical school.  This week, I finally have found some kind of freedom towards school and my friends.  So much happened, but now finally, I’m able to really be who I want to be and not be ashamed and following one person around.  I haven’t felt this in a long time and I LOVE IT!!!!!

      Oh yah, and I’m setting up a goal to do my blog as much as I can!

My memories are like pictures.

Only have little snap shots of a big memory.

Not a video playing but only the big details of the rememberance.

A picture of me sitting on the bench near the cherry blossoms.

A picture of you standing in the ocean.

A picture of our friends walk down the street.

A picture…

just a picture

just a part

but not a full memory.

The sun shines above my head,

waking me with it’s wonderful breeze.

The sweet smell of bread pasts by,

giving me the thought of ease.

A walk down the block

I see the sea.

and the boats on the dock

and bees on the sweet smelling flowers.

I find myself

like looking at a rainbow.

I find myself being the best I know

and I know my quest is done.

The sound of music
as beautiful as seeing you.
I remember the first time listening to this calm sound
like remembering the first time I saw you.
Memories are locked into my music
like you locked in my heart.
Music expresses love
like no other thing can.

Walking down the block,
I see you hiding your face.
then birds of a big flock.
fastening your pace.

Block away from home,
but you past.
Instead, you sat down to write a poem.
While others were having a blast.

I hide under the cherry tree.
And see the tears down your eyes.
You wanted to be free
You don’t want lies.

It was dark.

I walked into the second room.

I see you just lay there.

For hours you didn’t wake.

I sat beside

waiting for you

just waiting.

Hoping you would answer me.

But you just left me there

without a good-bye.

You left.

Should i blame you for leaving me?

You left me there crying

without an “I love you”

without a “good-bye”

without something to remember…

IS the truth so hard to tell…
that you have to tell me lies.
For everything.
everyday i hear a lie from you.
you tell me that you love me…
but should i believe that?
Do you have the right for me to believe anymore?
Truth is all i want.
I guess you don’t love me…
when you said everything was just you lying.

I hear the seagulls crying
like the voice of your “I love you”
The Ocean smells
like a wonderful dream
coming closer and closer to being true.
The sand feels
like the love I share with you.

Sitting on the roof.
I look up to the stars.
Wishing you were next to me.
How could it be.
This dream is impossible.
as impossible as a good night.
A good night with you.
The sky dark though beautiful,
smell of breeze flowing by
That good night i picture of…

I sit upon a tree.
I heard your voice coming from the distance.
Listening and slowly fall.
I look around…
All i see is sunlight.
Beautiful as a smell of flowers.
I smile.
because of you
I laugh because of you
You are my sun.
The sun who shines in my heart.